Live and Let Be May 31, 2008

How can one persons life be effected so much by a movie? I just saw the Sex and The City movie and I have realized just how Miranda my life has become. If I were to live a little and let something happen that I never thought possible, I wonder if it would finally make me realize what I am missing out on. I deserve to be be happy, and I am, but I always feel like something is missing. I want to start living my life not worrying about the what ifs.

My friend R is always sending me text messages normally that say, “Hey Hottie, whats up?” and 8 times out of 10 he is drinking. But what is strange to me is that for 3 1/2 years of college he sat next to me in every class we had together. The texts and our friendship didn’t REALLY start until he graduated. I mean, we were friends in class. Mainly just the whole hey, how is life…insert comedy and wit here….blah blah…lets study…bullshit of college. Now its the, hey, lets hang out soon because I miss you and need someone to hang with.

My life is so hectic and chaotic at times that I forget to have a life. I forget that I can’t please everyone and that I need to let loose and have some fun. Its gotten to the point I had the schedule a makeout date. I have officially become the spinster of my graduating class. At least it would give them something to talk about in a few years. 

So for the rest of the year I am just going to live and let be. Seems like a good plan…what do ya think?

L

Why can’t we just all live forever…. May 10, 2008

Sometimes I think people know they are going to die before they do so. They just have this feeling that something isn’t right and that they can’t fullfill an obligation so they call to tell you so you will not have to depend on them if they don’t make it. Sometimes I wish that we could all live forever…but im sure after a while we would get tired of one another.

This happened to a really close family friend and church member yesterday. We got a call from CM yesterday afternoon to tell dad that he wasn’t going to be at church on sunday and needed for dad to take over for him. We got a call this morning that he died this morning. It was an almost surreal thing. He seriously just called dad last night. But he had really bad heart problems and it finally gave in.

Im not sure if I should mourn or not. He lives a great life and was truly a Godly inspiration. Everyone loved him and looked up to him. My dad especially. Dad doesn’t know yet. He wasn’t here when we got the call. Of course I was the one that had to answer the phone call from PP. Life can hit you pretty hard sometimes.

But for now Im going to remember the great man he was and know that he is kickin it with Jesus. You know…they are probably talking about how he can help with Sunday School…..

 

CM
RIP…5/10/08

May 4, 2008

I have an addiction. PostSecret is something I check EVERY sunday morning. USually there are a TON I can relate too but none quite as true as the following one. Its something that I have dreamed about since I was a little girl. Its not that I dont like her. I really do! Its just that I have a selfish dream to go down in history as the 1st female President.

Thats all I have for right now.