What bothers me most about my life is that I try too hard. I try too do too many things and I end up stressing myself out. For the past week I have had soooooooo much to do. Whether it was something to do with College Dems, Planning an Israel @ 60 event, day-to-day drama of my life, or the craziness dealing with the school I have been SWAMPED. I end up doing so many things for other people that most of the time I forget I have to take care of myself too. I was talking with B a few weeks ago and he mentioned he was tired of being superman and was ready to just be B. I can relate to that. My first thought was the theme song from Scrubs.
Lazlo Bane’s Im No Superman
Well I know what I’ve been told
Gotta break free to break the mold
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I can’t do this all on my own
I know that I’m no Superman
I’m no Superman
When I look at my life from the perspective of a passerby it looks as if im living the dream. To the average passerby, I have an AMAZING life. But, thats not really the case. Yes my life is pretty amazing but there are dark parts to it as well. I have to deal with the constant bickering of my mother telling me I am a fatass, my friends being shady and bailing on me, the constant of boys begging me for my sisters number instead of them begging her for mine, and the lack of confidence around boys that most people think I have.
Im ready for things to be different. I am going to take today to start things over. I am ready to stop being superman and just be me. Too bad life isn’t that easy….but I can escape and not tell a soul where I am going.
